Diary

This time my pretending to study didn't work. OK, let's rename that "I totally failed". I could understand all of the questions fully and even knew how they should be answered... except the fact that I couldn't remember the middle parts of the theorems. I knew the conditions and the results, but I had absolutely no idea, how one goes from the conditions to the results. This was the first time in my life I felt so dumb. I think I'd have been scared a lot less if I didn't understand a thing in the test.

On a brighter note, I had an opportunity to use a tiny bit of Esperanto today. OK, so it was like three or four sentences, but it was still fun. I mean, seriously, Esperanto is such an awesome language. It's easier than English, it sounds better than English, it's more logical than English - it's so much more fit to be an international language. Well, too bad I can't change anything here - if I started writing in Esperanto, almost no one would understand a thing and this blog would be left without it's measly audience of three people. Weird logic it is, I must say. People don't learn Esperanto, because very few people know it, and very few people know it because they don't learn it. It reminds me of Dvorak keyboard layout - most people think it's more convenient than QWERTY, no one uses it. The same is true for Esperanto - most people think it's easier and more suitable to be an international language, everyone speaks English anyway.

RIGHT NOW: Just listened through Pink Floyd's "The Wall" for... I don't know, 75th time? I just can't grow tired of that album. OK, mi deziras endormiĝi, bonan nokton, ĉio homoj.

If you're really really interested, I am pretending to study for statistics midterm right now, which will be in an hour or so.

Whatever happened to my weekends? Right now it seems I'm doing a lot more work at weekends than I am on weekdays!

On a side note, my new pants are noisy. I didn't notice it until last night, when I went to the happy place. God, this was the first time when I seriously tried to walk as silently as possible, because my pants were making noise while walking!

OK, this will be it. I don't have any idea what else to write, because nothing fucking happens right now, and I work whole day, and it's boring.

RIGHT NOW: Eating breakfast, d'uh.

How do you tell you have a great day? You wake up at 2 PM! Then you spend two hours doing nothing (you tell people you're eating breakfast at 3 PM to freak them out and shit), then you turn your favourite F1 simulator (with Prototype Car mod this time though) and drive alone around Laguna Seca racetrack for two hours. And by alone I mean no frigging AI. Completely alone. I did around 70 laps there. If you think I went out of my mind... Well, no, I didn't. I still went to pee. If I were crazy, such little inconveniences wouldn't make me leave the game.

Well, actually, that was just a test whether the cars (and me) would hold out the whole race for a little championship I plan to run. If you count 25 race marathon with most races taking 2 hours and some even up to three a little championship, that is. I do. Racing 30 minutes for me is like masturbation - it's just not a real thing. I can't call it a proper race. So there, me and one of my friends are trying to find several more madmen or madwomen who'd be willing to waste several hours of their lives every weekend doing laps in a circuit they have no chance to see in their lives, much less drive it. Would be fun... if there were such people of course, but I find it very hard to believe.

Anyway, what I really wanted to share with you was a picture of burnt down car in front of my house. It was blown up two nights ago. Funnily, there were two firetrucks to put the flames out. I mean, seriously, most often only one comes to a burning house, what a fuck? If they see that flames are open, they just don't bother and wait until everything burns down, because you will have to demolish everything to build a new house anyway, so what a hell, why bother at all? Well, OK, maybe I am exaggerating a bit, but still, two firetrucks seemed to be one too many. The fire didn't even get to the fuel cell. Of course, that's kind of sad, because I am a huge fan of free fireworks, but, uh, OK, at least the sonic boom from explosion didn't smash my windows, I don't mind.

The problem is, I didn't get the picture. The burning happened at night, and my phone camera is crap in darkness. The next day I was too occupied with midterm exams and shit. Last night I remember I have to take a picture burnt down car... and yay, I didn't even go out today. I was too lazy to do that, how sick is that? God, I think if it were 70's, I'd be living in the basement and playing D&D and shit. Good thing we don't have basement, because we live in a flat. Anyway, I still blame the fact that I don't have a girlfriend. And don't try to convince me that this is circular logic, because to get girls I have to get out. Don't. Even. Think. About. It.

RIGHT NOW: Watching Gabriel Iglesias stand-ups. That... uh... fluffy guy is funny as hell. Too bad YouTube doesn't have a lot of his videos up. Ah well.

So you thought you were forgotten for a while, huh. Well, sorry, but I was too busy pretending like I was studying for mid-term test from Management Basics. If you think that subject is stupid - you're dead on. As you can easily guess, I didn't study at all and I'm proud of it, because I got 83% anyway. And by "didn't study" I mean skipped about a half of the lectures and didn't even bother to get a textbook. When I don't study, I mean it.

Except that, there isn't much to write about. I got myself a new addiction which is called Wikimapia. Now that thing is a million times more fun to edit than Wikipedia. Since I am a huge racing fan, first of all I started adding and editing various race courses in Lithuania and elsewhere. Three hours later, I have three kart tracks and three proper race tracks in Lithuania, historic Pescara circuit (huh, no one ever bothered to map out that one???) and St.Petersburg street circuit, where IRL races are held (again, huh?). In short, that thing is awesome.

What else... Oh, yes, of course, I bought myself a pair of gloves that go right up to your elbow and a scarf. Yes, I know they both look kind of girlish, but I don't give a damn. I'm kind of used to the fact that Tiffy increases my girl-or-gay-o-meter something like once every week, so it means I will be a girl or a gay in a couple of years, so why bother evading that. After all, those gloves are so cute and warm... And black!

RIGHT NOW: Just back from the bath and to the bed! I need my sleep badly, because this week I had seriously too little of it. 12 hour sleep, here I come.

Hurray for me, as I finished my concurrent programming homework, yay! Actually, it would have been a very easy one, but professor decided to make everything quadruply difficult by imposing limit on the lengths of arrays. Not just any limit, but eight elements. Eight elements for a bloody application which works with 40 chunks of data! OK, I know, most of you don't understand a shit and saying that I had to setup nine semaphores instead of one will not impress you. Let's just say that it's like making absolutely random things work in an orderly fashion - bloody hopeless and brain hurting.

Today during a lecture of complex analysis (I'm the only one mad enough to have picked that subject) professor made me a cup of coffee while I was busy solving a problem. To say that I was pleasantly amazed would be a serious understatement. Even knowing that I don't like coffee all that much. Now that is what higher education in Lithuania is lacking a lot - interaction between students and professors on more levels than just lectures and studies. I am really impressed.

And I'm starting to think that it's getting a bit too obvious that I really enjoy spending my time with one of my coursemates and try to go somewhere with her a bit too often... Ah well, like I care. Like my chances to score anything bigger aren't infinitesimal anyway, so I think I'll let the people think what they want to think.

RIGHT NOW: Thinking, whether I should put links to the stuff I am talking about. Maybe I can rely on my readers' abilities to Google themselves? Hmmm... Anyway, right now I am listening to Pink Floyd - The Wall album, easily one of my favourite musical creations of the previous century.

Last time I tried to be brief, I wrote one of the longest posts in this blog (out of four).

This time I ain't doing that mistake. It's 2:45 am and I want to sleep badly..

By the way, today something went 'click' in my brain and all of a sudden I started enjoying concurrent programming and started thinking its problems are actually cool. Either I am going insane or the world is going to end in 24 to 48 hours from now.

By the way squared, Tiffy raised my girl-o-meter up to 15% just because this blog is called diary. Oh come on, don't try to tell me only girls write diaries.

RIGHT NOW: I have just watched Scott Nicholson's video review of Blue Moon City boardgame. The dude is really awesome at presenting boardgames and his reviews are really worth watching... if you're interested in boardgames, that is.

Sorry, people, but I will be brief tonight. It's already 3:40 am here.

If you ask me, what I did up till now... well, uh, nothing serious really. It just seems that I am the last fan of Champcar on the Earth, because the last race was over 48 hours ago, but no one has bothered to update Wikipedia yet. Since I thought going to sleep isn't as fun, I just edited and edited and edited... Wikipedia is powerful on this regard. Once you start editing something, you just can't stop. Anyway, I've done what I could do, so maybe I should go to sleep after all.

Other than that, today was procrastination galore. I didn't even bother to get put of bed until it was 1:00 pm. Even then, instead of going to university, I turned on the PC and played F1 Challenge until... well, until I went to edit Wikipedia apparently.

I need a girlfriend pronto, otherwise I will become into fat smelly bearded excuse of a man in no time :-(

RIGHT NOW: Watching several YouTube videos about on-board laps in various venues, e.g. Nurburgring Nordschleife, Road America, Circuit Charade and Surfers Paradise.

Muhahahahahahaha!!! When my belief in Formula One is almost completely shattered, something worth watching happens. This time the biggest jerk and whiny kid of all times Fernando Alonso wanted to ensure daddy's boy Lewis Hamilton doesn't win the championship that the Drunken Finn gets the championship. Muhahahahaha!!! Stupid pricks... It doesn't matter that Massa was "unintentionally" held up a bit to make sure Raikkonen comes out first. It doesn't matter at all. Alonso's idiocy was more than enough to make me happy.

Anyway, all the evil laugh aside, I still think that Formula One sucks. There are a lot reasons for that, and it would take too long to name them all. Let's just summarize it in one word - BORING!!! When the most interesting thing in the race is when will someone pit, I somehow feel it shouldn't be called race at all. How about "colourful high speed parade"?

RIGHT NOW: Watching "Subway 500" in Martinsville Speedway. Maybe NASCAR is a redneck sport, maybe its races are a couple of hours too long and maybe it is stupid to run laps with left turns only, but heck, at least them are racing each other and don't go into "saving mode" with twenty laps to go.

Formula One needs cautions badly. That and more talented drivers who don't advocate installing bloody chicanes wherever the car is doing anywhere near 200 miles per hour. And some more interesting points system. And...

This... day... was... bloody... boring. I spent most of it procrastinating, and when I managed to convince myself to do something, it was Java app I have to do for Wednesday, because there was nothing better to do! I feel like I am degrading more and more day by day. This shit is terrible. Seriously. Think about it.

I did my Concurrent Programming homework because it was the funniest thing I could do at the moment.

If that doesn't strike fear or sense of pity into your hearts, you're a heartless motherfucker.

Anyway, late in the evening my sanity came back for a while. In the spring I got hooked with paper modelling. I grew tired of it after a while, mainly because the model I picked was crappy, but this autumn I got interested again and now I'm building an "Albatros" airplane. It's not too fancy and it's not a very difficult model, and it will definitely look weird because my skills are crap, but hey, this is ten million times funnier than coding concurrent shit.



RIGHT NOW: Watching Eddie Murphy's "Delirious" stand-up. Admitedly, he's not my favourite comedian of all times (I like Stephen Lynch, Pablo Francisco, Russell Peters, Monty Python (all six of them), Rowan Atkinson etc. a lot more), but heck, he still got some good jokes. And what's a better way to waste your night anyway?

I know, you can't understand, why I need another blog, when I don't update the old one frequently enough.

Heck, I don't know either. I just thought it would bring more order into everything I do online if I separated my ought-to-be private ideas from the "pile of cool things I dig up in the internet" that the previous blog degenerated into.

I like new layout.

Yes, that's it. No more reasons. If you thought I'd write a long explanation, I'm sorry to disappoint you. If you believe I will update this blog everyday just because it's called "diary". Well... Maybe. If I find enough courage to talk about some things in my life. Don't count on it too much though.

RIGHT NOW: Listening to the discography of Alizee. She has released the first single from her new album. That was a bit of hiatus, I am glad she's back.