Diary

Technically, the title isn't right. As of now, the cat is in vet's receiving lethal dose of drugs. Anyway, I won't see her anymore, so it counts. Breast cancer - a terrible disease, no matter if you're human or animal - has taken its toll.

When we got this cat, I was nine. And I hated that critter for a while, but by the time we moved to Kaunas, our relationship was a lot better. Anyway, for those not counting - she was around for a bit more than half of my life, so you can imagine how weird it is to be without a cat again. A little furry creature making a terrible mess out of your room, a bit bigger furry creature, flying down from ceiling with the lamp... A friend to greet you after a terrible day in school, university, work,  wherever, to get your mind off your problems and calm you down. A little incarnation of evil, pissing into your shoe, because you wronged her somehow. A little incarnation of good, always cheerful and wishing to play.

She will be missed.

RIGHT NOW: Listening to "Wish you were here" album of "Pink Floyd". Because it fits my mood right now.

I wrote a blog entry a couple of days ago but I deemed it to be too stupid to be postable. See, I have some quality control here after all. And it wasn't a very interesting rant anyway. No rants are interesting when written more because of boredom than anger.

Anyway, my great programming spree is over. A little test from Management is all that remains this week, and as far as I know, it's going to be a piece of cake. A program for my friend was very simple and a joy to write (seriously!), even though the numeric method it implements sucks a lot. Well, that's how it's meant to be after all - easy things don't work well usually. My own program... Well, let's not talk about it. After I wrote a page of its documentation (yes, we are required to provide documentation for our programs), I decided I can't bare it much longer and decided to rather get a zero for it than waste my time and brain cells. Linear algebra was never my forte and writing programs that implement the theorems of linear algebra - even more so. The third program - about concurrent programming using monitors - went fairly well though, which was kind of nice, given that I had only ten minutes to spend on it. Yes, I am fast.

Anyway, fuck the programming. It's not about it. I can't get my mind to programming anyway now.

My cat is quickly fading away. Just this morning she was able to jump up about a meter on a washing machine. Right now she's lying on the ground with her rear legs almost completely paralized. It seems that cancer finally reached the vital organs and nerves, so she has maybe a week to live... if we don't euthanize her, that is. I think we will do it, because it's a really pitiful sight to see her like that. The poor creature... It's a bit early to write all the good memories about the cat. It will quite probably be my next post. Right now I just wish that she will suffer as little as possible.

RIGHT NOW: Trying to make my cat feel comfortable during the last days (hours?) of her life. Death is a terrible terrible thing...

Fuck fuck fuck and fuckity fuck, it seems I spent last night thinking so much about the stuff I was going to blog about that I totally forgot to write anything in the blog! Very clever of me, especially when I don't remember most of the planned stuff right now anyway. OK, so let's try to remember everything...

First and foremost of all, I got an invitation to join a band. It is about a year since the last time I played in a band, so it came both as a pleasant surprise and a huge headache since most of my hardware wasn't used for that period of time and my skills aren't as mad as they used to be, and they weren't too mad even then. Anyway, I believe I will be able to cope with it... barely. I have three programs to write in the upcoming week - one in Java, one in C++ and one in Python - and they must be finished until Friday. There are no other variants - either they are finished by them or I am dead. Of course, the wonderful part about it is that I have started doing none of them yet.

This brings me to another great thing - the meeting of Lithuanian Formula One fans. OK, I can clearly see some of the people who know me a tad better than average confused. Yes, you remember it right - I absolutely hate Formule One as it is now. Doesn't matter really - I'm there to party and to promote some other racing series as well. However, this also means that I will most probably be absolutely unable to work on the three programs. This leaves me precisely four days and four nights for everything...

And I'll be damned if I don't make it.

RIGHT NOW: I have just spent three (four?) hours playing snooker online with my friend. That was quite fun actually, however, we're both terrible players and have lots and lots of things to improve. Well, if we play it as much as we played today, it might take quite a short time... and I will have even less time for the programs. Argh...

Oh, and yay for my new haircut. People say I look like a human being at last... What a nice way to put it, isn't it? Anyway, I kind of like it.

First and foremost, yay for the first snow this autumn! Since all autumns in this country are defined by absolute greyness of everything around, except the ground, which more resembles shit colour wise, and this kind of colours make me depressed all the time, I always enjoy the first snow. And the second. And the third. Snow is great. Right now it's still mixed with a lot of water, so it feels yucky, and if there is wind, the overall feeling is terrible, but outside the window it still looks a lot better than the usual grey and shit brown landscape.

Other than that... Well, not much to write about. I promised my coursemate to get a haircut this weekend and blew it, because I had insanely lot of work (I stayed up until 5am on Saturday without spending a single minute on the internet, except for Wikipedia, where I had to look up the info I needed). Hence as of now I have twelve hours fourty five minutes to get the damn haircut, because that's when I will go to the lectures and she will see me having broken my promise... which I, of course, do not want.

RIGHT NOW: It seems it was quite a while since I visited ICanHasCheezburger.Com, hence that's where I'm spending my time right now. Also I'm browsing BoardGameGeek.Com for all the info I can find about Warcraft: the Boardgame and Starcraft: the Boardgame. I have plans to make a boardgaming group of some sort, and I want some cool games for that, and I figured these might bring me some ardent PC gamers. Come on, you have to leave that box of silicon once in a while, don't you?

A day when you have to carefully read through 500 lines of code to find, what causes segmentation fault is not what I call a good day.

A day when you have to find an eternal cycle in the same lines of code after you catch the cause of segmentation fault isn't fun either.

Knowing that tomorrow you have a midterm test of Data Bases from SQL, when you have never in your life studied SQL and you have never ever been to Data Bases lectures - simply priceless.

Well, at least it snowed a bit today. I love snow.

I have a couple of thousands of Python lines still to come. Small part of them - tomorrow. A bigger chunk - next week.

Why why oh why do I understand programming? I could be some stupid moron instead and study... I don't know, marketing, management, anything else? Or, on another hand, why am I not a chick and can't use their *blink blink*, *look at me, I'm so cute, ain't I, so you wouldn't hurt me with a bad mark, would you?* and other special weapons that would help me immeasurably in this situation?

RIGHT NOW: Reading Phillip K. Dick's "A Scanner Darkly". I actually saw the movie first and was impressed (because Keanu Reeves is soooo cute, and I'm not even gay (no matter what Tiffy says)). I have also read Dick's "Ubik", which is also a very weird book. But they are well written weird books, I can give him that.

P.S. Sorry for a bit harder on the eyes blog background, but the previous got bugged for no apparent reason, and it's too late to spend additional five minutes carefully choosing from the pregenerated blog layouts (like I would ever bother with creating my own layouts anyway).

Oh... my... god... how scared I was today. Well, theoretically there was absolutely no reason for me to get that frightened, but theory and practice sometimes go differently. Anyway, there I was with one of my coursemates (the most favouritest of my coursemates, I must say, enter any droolings and overexagerated superlatives here you deem to be necessary). I was helping her with homework a bit (anyone who says "sure you were" in a sarcastic tone after reading this sentence will be shot on sight). I was perfectly informed that she has a boyfriend long time ago, but... let's be honest, I hoped to never ever meet him. However, the damn bastard came to her today right when we were doing homework.

I don't know, what got into me. We weren't doing anything that might have upset him even slightly, but I still went "Oh shit". I was ready to be killed instantly, smeared onto the wall or something else equally terrible happen to me. Anyway, I managed to gather my thoughts soon enough, so we just shaked hands, introduced ourselves... and I got the fuck out of there.

If you don't understand, why should I feel scared of him... Well, I don't either. But I would seriously rather not meet him ever again. That dude scares me just as much as that coursemate attracts, which is quite a lot.

RIGHT NOW: Converting Las Vegas oval from daylight to night. Saying that it doesn't go too good would an understatement. However, given (the lack of) tools I use for it, maybe the result isn't that bad after all. Anyway, I still think that the biggest problem with anything I and my online racing friends do is the lack of competitors, not quality of tracks, cars and other modifications we do. So if you know anyone interested in racing modded F1 Challenge 99-02... Champcar mod, to be more precise... feel free to inform them.

Public transportation is evil in its purest form, and don't try to convince me otherwise after I spent an hour in a traffic jam and another hour walking home because I figured that would be way faster. And the cause for that - trolleybus tore down the wires (I have no idea, how) and rendered whole sector powerless, and since it is one of the busiest intersections, there was line of thirty or even more trolleybuses in no time. I took a picture of the damn trolleybus which caused all this havoc, but my Bluetooth is not willing to cooperate with my Linux, so you will have to wait for that pic.

On a brighter note, I will have four days off, since it's a national holiday of... well, going to cemeteries and paying tributes to our dead ones. Sorry, we're not as cool as those Americans are and we don't celebrate Helloween walking around asking candy. We got holidays in the middle of February for that, and since the weather is almost always shitty these days, no one cares.

On a still brighter note, I get to sleep right now!

RIGHT NOW: convincing my computer to connect with my telephone and trying to launch several Windows applications on Linux interchangeably. The latter is a bit more successful, I actually got some of the simplier Windows programs to work on Wine.